I Just Find It Strange

A lot of things are rambling in my mind, at the moment. Majority are upsetting, still there are those which are very moving. Directing me to extreme euphoria, sometimes to nostalgia. I've condemned myself repeatedly for those "not so happy" things which happened, and I held no one but myself accountable for those occurrences. Could it have been a fault of someone else? Definitely not! Now, I'm paralyzed with so much wrath, guilt, probably doubt? and an overwhelming amount of regrets. These things have deeply wounded and heavily trampled my ego much worse than how I supposed. Thankfully, I've learned. So now, I'm trying to avoid those damn and foolish mistakes I've committed.